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On Quitting in the Middle of a Marathon

Sarah Menkedick
Gay Mag
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13 min readDec 10, 2019

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Illustration by Louisa Bertman

AA marathon is a ridiculous event. Kids dressed as tacos hand out marshmallow gel packets — the precise color and consistency of sperm — to thousands of bib-wearing, Lycra-clad humans hobble-running way farther than their middle-class working-professional bodies want to allow. People vomit and cry and stumble. People shout “YOU’VE GOT THIS BUDDY!” at other people vomiting and crying and stumbling. Spectators clang cowbells and hoist the pixelated faces of their loved ones on sticks. A marathon is a painful enactment of the absurdity of contemporary life, our alienation from physical labor, our hunger for meaning and purpose and community. It is also an excuse to lie flat on one’s back wrapped in a blankie like an infant, weeping in public.

I’ve run four of these. I’ve quit one.

The one I quit was just like any of the others. No 97-degree weather. No rain. No stomach flu or hip injury. It was a perfect fall day. The course was ridiculously flat. There were fireworks at the start and ample and enthusiastic spectators. I’d trained adequately and taken it easy during my last week. I’d mowed down three consecutive dinners of spaghetti. I’d woken up at 5am to choke down a Clif Bar. I’d done everything right.

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Gay Mag
Gay Mag

Published in Gay Mag

A new magazine from Roxane Gay offering some of the most interesting and thoughtful cultural criticism to be found on the Web. Our first quarterly is coming in June 2019. We value deep explorations, timelessness, and challenging conventional thinking without being cheap and lazy.

Sarah Menkedick
Sarah Menkedick

Written by Sarah Menkedick

Sarah is the author of ORDINARY INSANITY: FEAR AND THE SILENT CRISIS OF MOTHERHOOD IN AMERICA, forthcoming from Pantheon in April 2020. www.sarahmenkedick.com

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