My Bodies

How masculinity concealed my eating disorder

Alex McElroy
Nov 6, 2019 · 24 min read
Illustration by Carmen Johns

I: The Fat Boy Body

The fat boy lives in the echo of laugh tracks. The fat boy, frequently freckled, speaks with the most idiotic of voices. He eats too much to be smart. His stomach jiggles. The red mark of a hand fades on his skin. The fat boy falls on his face. He sits in a chair and then splat: the chair collapses beneath him…