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Alright Now
Now My Mother’s Voice Lives With Me
You could always recognize my mother’s laugh by the timbre of her delight. So rich, so black, so hers. A laugh that made you stop and turn, made you want in on the joke. You know that feeling. At a crowded restaurant, and from a table on the other side of the room, laughter fragrances the air and floats toward your curiosity. And you have to look. You know pleasure when you hear it and, starving, you want in.
I loved making my mother laugh. The sight of her head thrown back, eyes crinkled shut, all of her teeth catching light usually pushed me to try my luck with another joke, another riff, another perfectly timed slant of my eyes. Even when I went too far and got an “alright, now, that’s enough” from her, it felt like a standing ovation.
Back when you could actually meet people at the gates, my grandma greeted us at Memphis International Airport, chuckling softly as we walked toward her. “I could hear you laughing from all the way on the far end of the jet way,” she said, looking at Mom. “Been listening to you for what feels like three minutes now. That’s my Carol.” My mother looked at me and we started laughing all over again.
Alright now, that’s enough. In the spring of 2011, my mother died. By the fall, it occurred to me that she had taken the sound of her voice with her. I have no…
