Four seasons in memory

Amanda Fortini
Gay Mag
Published in
12 min readFeb 13, 2020


Illustration by Carmen Johns

1. Summer

InIn the summer when you were a teenager, you’d climb out your bedroom window.

It went like this: Someone, almost always a boy, would come to the window, tap, tap, tap. You’d sit up from the bed, where you waited fully clothed under your blue-and-green floral Laura Ashley bedspread, and arrange the pillows into a five-foot-six lump that…